Day one January 23rd 2011

Okay so I've seen it coming for days, weeks, months heck even years.  I've become FAT.  I would love to say I didn't see it coming.  I could say I just woke up one day and poof I was fat.  The truth is I've done this to myself.  I've eaten my way to this body.  On a diet of fried foods, junk food (potato chips mostly) and a little cake here, a couple of cookies there, here a piece of candy, there a fast food purchase and perhaps a vegetable or fruit thrown into the mix.
The truth is with all the eating I have chosen to for go exercise.  I HATE IT!!! It doesn't make me happy, it doesn't make me feel good.  If you know me you know I say my body is allergic to it.  I have honestly gotten sick from it. I've done it, I've lost a few pounds but then I get sick or have a bad day and *poof* I've fallen off the wagon.
Well today I've had it.  I'm tired of wearing a size 18 (that's right I'm putting it out there as I slowly die of shame and embarrassment) I'm tired of hiding behind excuses and I think by putting it out there (wait for the part when I tell you how much I weigh)  I can get a better handle on trying to stay healthy.  Now I'm not going for the super skinny look.  I'm not built for that but I would like to get down to a healthy weight (still trying to build up to typing that number) I hope that by putting this out there you can help me stay on track and  get to my ideal weight.
I know it won't be easy and I know there maybe some tears and new words made up but it's about time that I suck it up, put on my big girl pants and get to moving.
Are we ready??? Cuz here we go...
Starting stats: (because this is what you really want to know)

Weight: 224 pounds (geez that's like 4 models) and that was hard to type
Size: 18
Bra size: 39DD (man those are huge knockers)


GOAL WEIGHT: between 160-150 pounds 
GOAL SIZE: between 13/14 and 11/12
GOAL BOOB SIZE : well anything is better than what I am now.