WARNING!!!

So, As the title states: WARNING!  I am warning you that this post is a little revealing.  You know when you really have gone too far.  You feel it in your bones, you sense it with your spider senses, you know as soon as you do it, it's too much.  Well folks I did it.  I think I have been avoiding it for years and thus is the reason I've started this blog.  (It's not too late to turn back and not read this, I haven't given it away yet) 

Let me start at the beginning.  I have not always been a Fat Girl.  Now I've never been a skinny mini either but I was the correct weight I should be for me.  The weight has piled on over the years like a winter coat that I failed to take off and then the next year I just put on another one.  You know your gaining weight when your clothes don't fit or you have a hard time getting into your "fat" jeans.  You know it's time to lay off the junk food when you see a picture of your self and go "OH MY GOD IS THAT ME?" What happened?  But I don't think it really, really , really hits you until you see yourself NAKED in a FULL LENGTH MIRROR!!!  Yes, folks that is what has happened.  It wasn't on purpose ( let's face it when you know you've gained a little weight you tend to not look in full length mirrors naked. As a matter of fact, you only look in mirrors that show you from the boobs up!) You try to avoid those pesky mirrors in department stores and fitting rooms.  But when you actually see yourself in a mirror (from head to toe) naked , You really see that you have let yourself go. 

I just recovered from that moment.  I can not describe how sad I felt.  Well I can but then I may have to be admitted into some kind of hospital ward.  I just stared at the weight that has overtaken my body.  I felt helpless and most of all disappointed.  How did this happen? 

Well I can tell you that it's nothing like a fresh look at yourself, naked no less, that makes your resolve to lose the weight that much more urgent.  I know it's a process and I'm processing it stupid slow.  But the body in the mirror does not lie.  So I'm going to become more committed to GRTFG.  I have to if I don't I may not be able to fit in the full length mirror anymore....

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redirecting

It's been a week since I've posted.  Man I'm bad at this blogging thing.  LOL.   It's just that you get so lazy, I mean busy that before you know it a whole week has gone by.  I guess it doesn't help that I haven't been in the best of moods lately.  Trying to change my attitude at work but things keep happening that keep rubbing salt in the wound. This week I'll try again.

It's supposed to rain all week :( That is not going to help improve the situation.  SO my workouts will have to be focused on the Wii this week.  Back to the Wii Fit.  I wasn't doing the Wii Fit for a while.  The stupid Fit Board kept losing battery power in the middle of my walk workout.  How frustrating is that!  And I have the rechargeable batteries.  But of course something was amiss.  People don't believe me when I say that the forces of the universe try everything in it's power to make me NOT workout!  Ha ha. 

Has anyone ever read those Eat This Not That Books?! I have to say I'm so obsessed with them.  Right now I'm reading the new one The Eat This Not That No Diet Diet!  It helps incorporate the ETNT (I’m not spelling it out anymore) Books into a workable No Diet Diet!  I'm loving it.  Altho if I'm honest a lot of the Eat That part I don't eat anyway.  But there have been some things that I thought these are good for you and it turns out that they are not!   It's a good little guide when you are out eating or grocery shopping.  I know my family is ready to gag me because I'm always saying "That's on the Not That side of the ETNT"  Hey what can I say?  I have a slight case of OCD (shut up) 

Anyway.  I'm still trying to find a balance in the "activity" realm.  If only I could channel Jillian Michaels.  Then I would be looking good.....


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Changes

So, I have not completly kicked the couch potato syndrome. But I have gotten better.  I know it's been a while since I've made a GRFG entry.  I've been busy!  With the walking and stuff a girl just doesn't have that much free time.  After my walks I just want to sleep.  I am forseeing a huge problem coming up.  I do my walks in the afternoon after I get off work.  Well it's getting hot outside and I don't want to walk in the HEAT!!!!  What's a girl to do?  I can't afford to slechp it to the gym everyday.  And I go to work too dang early to do it before.  I don't want to wait until the sun goes down because I want to get back before it gets dark.  So what can I do to stay slightly active?  Taking any and all suggestions.  Let's be clear that I am just taking the suggestions, I will pick and choose to use them. 

I must confess I've been a little snacky lately.  I don't know what is going on but the munchies have over taken me.  Could it be my nerves? I'm too young to have nerves! 
What do you do to get past the munchies???


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Two days off

So, after my roll on activity I came to a halt on Wednesday.  It rained on Wednesday and I took my walk to Publix to get some salad fixings.  Well I walked around Publix not that I walked to Publix.
Fast Forward a few days.  When I started this entry I had lost two days.  Well lets round that up to 3.  On Thursday I went and checked out Ladies Night at a nice restaurant.  Had a drink (Yes just one like that's a surprise) and some apps.  There were three of us and we split a salad, a burger and fries and 3 apps.  So it was not a bad deal.  Then on Friday I went to see the Harlem Globetrotters and watched them work out for a few hours.  :) Hey I didn't say I would always be the one working out ! LOL.  Anyway I hung out with the family and I ate little bites from everything they got at the concessions.  I have to admit I stole, I mean asked for more fries than I should have.  But Hey I LOVE French Fries.  So there.
But (drum roll please.......) I got my little booty up and walked Saturday Morning and then later Saturday spent a few hours at the grocery store walking around and pushing the cart.  And anyone who tells me that isn't exercise then all I have to say to you is.... You push a cart filled with food around a grocery store packed with people twisting and turning trying not to run them over or knock down the display of canned goods some hard working person neatly placed up.
Today I had to deal with losing an hour of sleep.  Blah... And I did not get up and walk.  I'll save that for tomorrow. Till then....


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To the gym you say?!

So, I've been doing really good getting up and exercising this past week.  I've walked at least two miles(one there and one back).  And Yesterday I WENT TO THE GYM!!!  I have not been to the gym since the great costacontritis( I know I totally spelled that wrong sound it out people! It's basically inflammation of the ribs) epidemic.  For those of you who know, I was down for the count. I couldn't do anything.  And when I say I couldn't do anything my poor sister had to fasten my bra for me because I couldn't do it.  (Thanks again for that Kila) Imagine, if you will not being able to breathe.  I couldn't do that without being in immense pain.   So thus a fear began.  I never, ever wanted to experience that again so I stopped going to the gym, and exercising  all together.  Besides the fact that I was down and out for almost a month!  I thought I just had Gas!  I went a whole week thinking I had heartburn and one good burp or fart (lets be honest we all feel that way once in a while) would make me feel better.  Which I did end up having heartburn (the GURD) along with inflamed ribs!  How lucky was I?!!  So can you blame me for swearing off exercise?

Well, yesterday I jumped back on the horse.  I went back to the gym and it didn't kill me.  At least not yet, Hey it took almost 5 months for COSTA( I've shortened it) to form.  So, for now, I'll try to make it to the gym at least once a week and take it slow.  For the rest of the excerise I'll just continue to walk.

In case your wondering where the weight stats are, I've decided that I'm not going to weigh myself.  It's nerve racking and depressing when you step on the scale and you don't see any results.  I'm feeling better and I know it's a process so NO SCALES!!! 

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Holla'

So, I got up this morning and walked two miles.  One mile there and then the mile back.  YAY ME!  I find that once I get going I don't mind it so much, it's the going that trips me up at times.  But if I want to lose the fat I have to put in the effort.  No matter how hard that is.  I love that I have a great support system.  Thank you for that.  I'll be doing some more walking later today at the town center.  But that is for fun and not exercise even tho it will be a little.  SO please keep the encouragement coming.  I really need it!



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Rollin'

So, Followers I walked 2 miles yesterday!  YAY ME!!  One mile there and one mile back.  You know it didn't kill me.  And I did it in less than an hour.  Now I know the average time is some ridiculous time like an 8 min mile.  But I was walking and I was pretty proud that I did it in 20 min.(one way) And what's a hour out of my day?  It seems easy in theory but actually putting in the time and effort is what is killing me.  So if I could ask you my GRTFG followers if you could facebook me, text me, post on the blog me,little prompts to make me, I mean remind me, to  get out and do it everyday! I'd be forever grateful.  It's harder to not do it when you have people reminding you to do it! 

Man I ask a lot don't I! LOL.  But with your help I could lose the fat and how great would that make you feel?!! HUH?  If I had a picture of a little fat girl and sappy music playing in the background would that tug at your heartstrings to send me money..I mean reminders?  I started thinking about those commercials that want you to send money to help xyz.... 

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